A No15 Addition
As the eve of a New Year approaches the time seems perfect to dig a bit deeper into the thinking I’ve been doing recently.
In my ’15’ post of a few days back I talked about having to go back to work and used the analogy of working behind a door. That door has a big brass No15 on it to represent the 15 months I’m setting aside to focus on this work. Today I want to look at something else I found behind that big red door.
But first a quick summary.
The unpalatable truth I’ve uncovered is that all my current big goals are out of reach right now. Why is that?
It’s because I haven’t yet arrived at the destination the ‘Gleda Project’ started out for. I’d lost sight of the fact that the journey was not yet finished.
I’ve been ignoring reality. The reality that if I don’t change things, not only are we unable to do all we want to do in the future, but we can’t even carry on doing what we’re doing now.
I found three areas that are key to those changes.
1. MONEY: I want to find a way to make the cash I need to live the life I want to lead and to do the things I want to do.
2. GLEDA: I want to tackle the big list of maintenance tasks and desirable improvements that ‘Gleda’ needs.
3. HEALTH: I want to pay more attention to my physical and mental health.
But I need to add a fourth one.
I haven’t talked about it before but it’s right up there.
There’s a problem though. I’m having difficulty describing it.
Let’s see if this works.
You’re embroiled in ‘normal’ life, working all hours, charging about the place, juggling job, home, kids etc. etc. You dream of having time to yourself, time on your hands, time to chill. Summer holidays might be the only time you get to really taste that freedom. You stretch out by the pool, take a sip from your ice cold drink, feel the warmth of the sun on your skin and think to yourself “This is the life”. But just as you begin relax they’re over. You’re back to bedlam. You fantasise about a lottery win, never having to worry about money again, having everything you want. You’d live by that damned pool.
OK, that’s not everyone’s idea of heaven I know, but here’s my point.
Should you ever find yourself ‘living the dream’ for any length of time you might start thinking a little differently.
I know because it’s happened to me.
Ignoring for a moment that our lifestyle is not sustainable. It remains a fact that for nearly three years now Gail and I have been doing just that, ‘living the dream’. In effect we’ve been living by that damned pool.
It’s been a blast and I’ll never go back to ‘normality’ but I’ve made a surprising discovery……… I need something more.
You know what? I’m waffling. I’m dancing around like a muppet on a spring just to avoiding using a single word. Sod it, here it is.
PURPOSE. There I’ve said it. I need to have a purpose.
I was avoiding saying it because the word is overused. Self-help books bang on about it endlessly. ‘You’re on this planet for a reason, until you find out why, until you find your purpose, you’ll be unhappy, your life will be meaningless’. Some say you can never be happy until you find it. They make out like it’s a single entity that will hit you like a thunderbolt one day. That didn’t happen for me, it took a long time. But gradually my feeling that something was missing morphed into something more tangible. It morphed into another truth.
I need something more than money and sunshine days, I need to feel like I’m giving something, helping people, doing some worthwhile work.
It shouldn’t really have come as such a surprise to me. This need for purpose has manifested itself before. The ‘Normality Fighter’ website I set up a while back, then binned, being one example. That was all about trying to help people.
’Normality Fighter’ died because I didn’t think it through and I didn’t have any idea where I was headed with it. Now though I have a clear path to follow. That path has opened up thanks to all the feedback I’ve received since ‘A Foolish Voyage’ was published 12 months ago.
Dozens of blog comments, emails and reviews from folks telling me I’ve inspired them, given them some hope, encouraged them to make some different choices. Thanking me.
The path is clear.
I must write more. I must help more.
I want to encourage and inspire others to stop thinking that their dreams can never come true.
There’s a quote by American poet Robert Frost that perfectly describes how I want to do that.
Being an awakener seems like a good purpose to have.
Next time out I’ll talk more about my writing and how important it will be for No15
Thank you so much for sticking with me in 2016. And remember.
A new year is like a shiny new notebook, and the pen is in your hands. Go ahead……..write a beautiful story for yourself. Happy New Year.
Neil & Gail